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03.05.2004 7:29 p.m. i think my little demon has awoken again. i feel so alone. i wish i had friends. well maybe i do have friends but they arent real friends...i want friends like in elementary school who come over to each others house and just sit there and amuse themseleves. everyone lives so far or is busy with their own lives or other people. i think about the past sometimes and think if i could kill myself again. no. i couldnt. i want to live. i just want things to change and i dont know how to do it. maybe its too late and this is how my life is going to be. but it cant. right? like someone cant be unhappy forever, right? i think if i could go back to guelph...maybe but even then i dont have anyone. its just easier to fake when everyone just sits around drinking. i tired of feeling lonely. |
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strawberry gashes that never disappear |
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